Sunday, October 16, 2011

if you haven't heard...

if you haven't heard...
I decided that i needed a new start..

so i completely changed email addressed and blog

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Wednesday, June 8, 2011

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come see me at my new blog

last change from me....i promise

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Prayer works...Remeber that!

Dear Lyla,
Last Saturday..I don't know the date..but I know this post is we will figure it out if need be...your dad and I went to play BINGO with your Nanny and PaPa.
So we asked if your Dad's mom and dad could hang with you while we were gone for a few hours...they said yes..which was shocking...because we hadn't been getting along very well...
well..i can't say haven't been getting along...we just haven't talked...
long story
So we took you up play...we took your Dora movie so you would be comfortable and watch your shows..with your Christmas blanket, baby dolls...all of it!
On the way home..we called to check on you...Norma said you were a little warm so she had a rag on your head and you told her, "Nanny I'm sick"
So we stopped by Wal Mart on the way home to get some Tylanol because I wasnt quite sure how much I hadn't been sick in a while.
When we got there to pick you soon as I touched you I knew you were burning with we got you home and took your temperature.
You had 103.9
Inside..I was flipping..I wanted to choke someone for letting you get like this.
But I know you were depending on me to take care of you and be calm.
We called my mom and stepdad...and told them if I couldn't get it broke in a hour...we were going to the ER...because I didn't know how long it had been that high.
And I really didn't want to take you to the ER because spinal menigitis has been going around and two people from our area had gotten at the ER.
You wouldn't take your medicine..because you had sinus drainage and it gagged I put a cooling Mickey Mouse on your head.
When Nanny and PaPa came you didn't even want to talk to them or have PaPa hold something was seriously wrong.
I just laid you on me and sat on the couch and just prayed with my hand on your back.
If you wouldn't take your medicine....I didn't know how long you had had high fever....I didn't want to take you to the ER....Just Pray!
It should have been the FIRST thing I did.....
About five to ten minutes later..your fever was going down..tremendously! Fast!
You started talking...playing...looking at pictures on our phones...
You were back to Lyla.

Thank God!

God touched you that day...I believe in my soul....he healed you and proved to me that prayer should be the first thing I do..not my last option.

Remember that...Pray
Pray first
Start everything with Prayer...

Start your day with prayer
Start a new relationship with prayer
Start a new job with prayer

everything should START with prayer

I want you to know that God laid his hand on you...and brought your fever down....he loves you...cares for you..and has given you a purpose in this life.
It might take a while for you to figure it out...and you will make plenty of mistakes trying to learn right from wrong...
but i am here....non-judgemental....caring....
God is there....always forgiving and renewing your soul

Life is hard.....

but .........
you have me
your dad
and a mighty God

Lean on us..and you got it made!!!

I love you!

Your Mom

Saturday, January 15, 2011

I missed you!

Dear Lyla,

Last night you spent the night with your Nanny and PaPa because I had to get up at 4am to go to a class for work. Your Daddy had to work too so you got quality time with Nanny and PaPa!! You were so excited!!
I was less excited.
I knew you were going to be safe...I completely trust your Nanny and PaPa (my mom and step dad)...They love you just as much as I I knew you were OK...
it is just..
I haven't been away from you for that a LONG time!
I am used to having you with me.
I like your company.
I like talking to you!

I think it was harder ...well..i know it was harder for me to leave you than for you to be without me because when I left you said.."See yah later! Love you!"

I could not sleep that night to save my life!!
I got three hours of sleep and had to get up and go to Little Rock.

I have no idea how I am still awake..but right now you are in the Living Room watching Minnie Mouse and Daddy will be home soon...and I hope we all fall asleep soon!!!
Tomorrow is church! You love going to church! I love that you love going to church!!

I love You!!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Dear Lyla,

This letter is a letter of complete appreciation and adoration to you Miss Lyla.

I had to have my gall bladder taken out because I had alot of gall stones. My mom told me that every woman in our family has had to go through this after having thier first I would love to say that you will never have to deal with this...but chances probably will!
But I know that I will be right by your side like my mom was with me.
And to be really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be!! just ran past me going to the bathroom with your panies in your hand...
let's see what is going on.. the toilet flushed...

You ran in here in the computer room and said,
"See mommy is all gone! I put it in the toilet and flushed it"

I am laughing so hard right now. You are in the living room watching Go, Diego, Go! love that just started getting into it...and I guess you had to go to the bathroom but didn't want to miss a good part!!! crack me up!!

Anyway...I had to be off work so I could heal from my gall bladder surgery.
Your daddy and I had planned on him taking you to school then your Nanny picking you up to help me take care of you since I couldn't really get up and down very good.
And that happened the first day I was down.
The second day Nanny picked you up and we all went to Nanny's house to celebrate your PaPa's birthday!
The third day and everyday after that...we just hung out!

I had planned on taking you to school...but I enjoy your company!

You make me laugh. We play together. We cuddle and watch TV.
Eat. Talk to Daddy when he calls on his lunch break from work.

I loved hanging out with you!

When it got closer to time for us to get back into our normal routine..I thought I would actually take you back to school so that it wouldn't be so hard on your when we both had to go back.
So when I woke up one morning I asked you if you wanted to go to school or hang with mom and you said,
"I wanna stay with mom"

My heart melted! All I could do was grab you and hug you and give you kisses!!

I hope you say that for a long time to come!
I hope that we always have fun hanging out!
and I promise I will try my hardest to be cool..

but Daddy thinks you are going to want to take him to Prom...

Good Luck with that honey!!

I love you so so so much!!
Thanks for hanging out with me and making my week of recovery the best week of my life!!


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Great Helper!

Dear Lyla,
Yesterday I had to go in and have surgery to get my gall bladder removed. I was so worried that something was going to go wrong. I started noticing every little thing about you.
Your long fingers
Your long eyelashes
Your Daddy's lips
Your grandma's toes
the way you talk
the way you walk
your cute little attitude
and they way you have no worries.

Just looking at you being carefree and happy ...really makes me feel like I am doing my job as a mother right. I know your life won't always be carefree...
There will be will love them and hate them...
There will be friends that you get into fights with...
School scholarships...
but out of all that..I want you to know..that I am here! Talk to me! About anything! I pray everyday that we have that kind of relationship where you feel comfortable talking to me and seeking my advice.
I know that you won't always take my advice..and I know that sometimes you are going to have learn from your own mistakes...but please know that through it all..i will catch you when you fall..when you are at the your bottom...and you need a hand to get back up..I will be there!!

Yesterday you went to the Monkey House with your Nanny dont' see her much...that is a long drama story that I really don't want to concern you with..but you had a good time and that is all that matters.
While you were playing me and Daddy rested from being at the hospital.
When you got home you told me all about your day...and then laid on the couch with Dad and fell asleep.

Today Daddy was going to get you up and take you to I could rest..then Nanny Carol was going to pick you up and take you to her house until you were ready for bed. Then bring you home and put you to sleep for me because I can only lift five pounds right now.

But...I missed you like crazy yesterday so you stayed home with me until Nanny picked you up.
You were so good!
You helped me get went potty by yourself like a big girl...
you played and watched tv...
I love you so much..I know God hand picked you just for me!! I am so proud of you!!

When Nanny came to get you kept telling me to sit down because I had boo boo''re so sweet and so grown up for your age.
But had a job to had to help Nanny go feed the horses and play with your Uncle you had to go!
You told me you loved me..that you were going to eat some peppermints and Cowboy Cheese...and BYE!

I want to cherish these moments right now...because they go by so fast!!

I love You!!


Sunday, January 2, 2011

You told Daddy!

Dear Lyla,
Today you were so funny! You are everyday but today you had me and Daddy cracking up at you!
This morning we slept in until about 9am..then we got up out of bed around 11 and watched some TV and had Dora gummies for breakfast! Shh!
Then we took down our Christmas tree..I had to keep telling you that we got our presents from Santa and we will put it up again next year when we wait on Santa. You kept saying, "Otay"
We slept in so we missed morning getting ready for evening were a HOOT!
Daddy was in the shower trying to get cleaned up and you kept telling him to "Get out of the shower Daddy!"
So I started telling you to tell Daddy that we were going to leave him..and he better hurry up.
But in your own words!!!
You told your daddy
"you better get out the shower in five minutes or we are leaving you little boy and i'm gonna fold you like a piece of paper"
All we could do was laugh!!
You have an attitude..let's be honest!! But it is way cute!!
You will tell Daddy you are going to "bust him in the head" sometimes...
but it is his fault because he teaches you all this attitude!!

Then on the way to church...Daddy turned right on red to go to church..and you told him that Sister Myers (our pastors wife and your Sunday school teacher) was going to get his butt for running the red light. know that you are supposed to stop on red..and go on green!! And your not even three yet!!
You are so smart!!

When we got to church..Sister Myers DID get Daddy's butt for you!! and you just smiled!!

You didnt' take a nap today so after church on the way home you passed out!! So I took you in the house and slipped you into bed! But right now it is 11pm...and you woke up about an hour that didn't work out very well for momma because YOU and MOMMA have to go to school tomorrow.

So we are going to go lay in Momma and Daddy's bed and watch TV and HOPEFULLY you fall back to sleep so we aren't crabby in the morning!!

I love you!

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